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i never understood the concept of friends only. on saras i did because ppl liked to talk shit on her journal. but other than that i just dont get it... maybe thats just me i dont know.
<3
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i feel like something is wrong. i dont know i feel like shit. well thats all... no updates lately sorry not that anyone cared though but its ok.
<3 amor
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Miguel is cheating on me.
He is having an affair with the spurs.
DAMN THE NBA!!!!!!!!!!
Amor~Vero
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this is really gay i am so bored and tehre is nothing left to do and yea im boired im exempt from all of my classes except ummmmmmmmmm dual credit hsitory which really sucks but oh well right i wanted to take my dual credit history and now im stuck with it haha oh well its my own fault... anyways miguel was here all weekend i had fun im glad he came... :D i was so happppppppy lol yup yup that i was and anyway i am just realizing taht i have to take my BCIS class next year and its going to suck bc i dont know my homekeys you know what i mean yea i can type kinda fast and stuff but its not the right typing its crazy i dont know so i think that i will be typiing alot faster than i normally do whihc will be cool but i dont know i dunno i cant wait for next year then yea it will be great ill graduate get out of this town and never look back... i dont know what i am so ready for christmas... haha :D ic ant wait.... lol im just kidding... haha i wish it was over.... well the christmas day part anyways i think i am going to work out most of the christmas holiday if i can rememebr too bc that i just something that i need to do because im getting F-A-T haha anyways yea i have to go i need to look up some stuff to help miguel with his paper for his music class so that he can hopefully pull a "B" but yea so i am gonna go who do i write it on john lennon, jimmy hendrix, or elvis? any other suggestions?
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DUDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i am so happy miguel is coming tomorrow... :D im so excited i just cant hide it.... lol im a dork i know oh well... i dunno what to say im just here bored and yea i dont know what to do or anything... haha but miguel is comming tomorrow
brb
ok im back i had to call chris. and kim broke the copy machine and we had to fix it... anyways.
ohh... i need to tell miguel to get me 3 wrist band things from texas state so i can give them to my friends... haha they are gonna pay for them though... i think its just 3. oh well haha i need to remember to tell him though... anyways... oh yea miguel is coming. and i am happy and thats all i can think of right now i guess... haha i dunno i just know that i am happy. i dont have to take my finals except for history. and oh well it cant be that hard... oh yea we talked to mr burger today about mrs alexander. and yea we are going to have a meeting about prom. thank god. so we can get this shit strait... ok and yeah i dunno... im out ok later days
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Well I'll never forget the first time that I heard
That pretty mouth say that dirty word
And I can't even remember now what she backed my truck into
But she covered her mouth and her face got red
And she just looked so darn cute
That I couldn't even act like I was mad
Yeah I live for little moments like that
Well that's just like last year on my birthday
She lost all track of time and burnt the cake
And every smoke detector in the house was goin' off
And she was just about to cry until I took her in my arms
And I tried not to let her see me laugh
Yeah I live for little moments like that
I know she's not perfect but she tries so hard for me
And I thank god that she isn't 'cause how boring would that be
It's the little imperfections it's the sudden change in plans
When she misreads the directions and we're lost but holdin' hands
Yeah I live for little moments like that
When she's layin' on my shoulder on the sofa in the dark
And about the time she falls asleep so does my right arm
And I want so bad to move it 'cause it's tinglin' and it's numb
But she looks so much like and angel that I don't wanna wake her up
Yeah I live for little moments
When she steals my heart again and doesn't even know it
Yeah I live for little moments like that
haha i like that song its cool...
ok yea mike is here and its making miguel a little wierd i dunno... i can understand though so i wont let it bother me too much
smtplayaz2k3 : hey
vogue_obsession: huh
smtplayaz2k3 : im sry if i seemed upset, im just selfish
vogue_obsession: its ok
smtplayaz2k3 : u mean the world to me
haha its little things like that that make me never mad at him for anything haha ... i dunno but i really have nothign to update about except that i have put 500 songs on my media player in the past 2 days bc i got a cable modem and i can play halo now... woo hoo! ok bye
amor~ vero
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ok n yeah i had a crappy weekend... as compared to what right? lol
"you can tell me.you know you can tell me anything"-thats what he always says haha i love miguel... he's my escape.. when no one cares he does... he makes me feel SPEcIAl :D lol haha but yea i dont know... i had a shitty weekend again and i cant wait to get out of this hell hole... i dont know i wanna see miguel... i miss him. i hope i can go for Christmas break... pray for me guys... maybe ill get to go... i hope i can i really wanna see him.
ok well thats all for now...
amor~vero
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hey miguel told me to update and i guess i should i really havent in a long time well i havent had anything to really update its been the same old shit...
nothing has changed
i still wanna go shopping
i still love miguel
i still miss him a whole lot
i still have school
i still have nothing to do...
i am STILL BORED
so yea i dont know miguel cam this past week... we were in my moms room and he asked me what i was thinking and i told him id tell him later it was because i didnt wanna cry so i didnt tell him till later but i still dont think i told him the whole big picture of what i was thinking.. i told him i was thinking about that i missed him.. but that wasnt all i was also thinking about how i hated it when he wasnt around... i really do i hate not being around him... i just love him so much you know... it hurts when i cant be with him i miss him so much sometimes.. i really do. im a dork i know but i really do cry some times because i miss him soooooo much but oh well gotta rough it out for a while till i get to "be" with him i guess i dont know... its so unfair i see couples everyday that get to see each other everyday and all they do is fight and be mad at each other... it makes me soo mad im like DUDE WTF imagine how lucky you are you get to see each other everyday and be with each other everyday and this is what you do? argure 85%of the time? it gets me so mad... id ont knwo but i am going to stop typing my eyes are all red because im trying not to get all choked up ok bye for now
con amor~vero
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yea prom is going to be great haha mr grimm is tiiiiiggghhhhht and so is mr burger he is really not that bad of a person i guess i was wong about him but i need fundraising ideas haha help me anyone PROM IS GONNA BE TIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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ok im bored i think i am going to go on the band trip after all because i have nothing better to do you know what i mean and yeah the guy for my jacket is comming today and i think i get to get what i want and yea it will be great you know what i mean.... haha yea i think i will have it before like the end of this week hopefully but i know by next week i ineed to call my mommy and tell her to come so i can get my jacket the way she wants you know...yea i dontk now michael told reptar thati asked for his number even though i didnt he gave it too me what a douche bag ahaha imma tell him stuff today oh well i dont know what a LOSER haha ok yea i dont know im bored i need to go talk to mr flroes about the band trip to florida to see if i can still go you know what i mean i dont know me and miguel dont have the same sping break so i dont think it will matter if i go lol not that that was stopping me but yea... i dont know if i even want to go its kinda boring but i dont know something to do you know what i mean... yea i dont know i feel like being mean so i think i am going to be mean all day today... illstart by picking on reptar!!! haha ok bye
much love
~the []D<>[]<>[]V[]<>[]D
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ok well last night was kinda boring i was very annoyed but like alot of everything you know whati mean! haha yea anyway i talked to miguel for a while but i dont know what we were talkinga bout well i do but i dont know i cant really remember past like i dont know what time i was kinda tired but oh well that is just what happens.. yea the library is packed so i might get off in a few so that i can be nicve and let someone else use e compa nd ill be a good Samaritan i guess i dont know there are allot of druggies int his school its kinda crazy but tahts all there is in this town drugs and football right i want to talk to miguel and talk to him abuot all the things we talked about last night because i cant remember some of it like i remember what i said but i cant really remeber what he asked about why i said what i said i dont know if that makes sense but oh well you know what i mean... i cant wait to graduate its gonna be spiffy! haha
anyways i passed my physics test like WOAH!!! haha it was easy as fuck haha i had to say that... haha these dudes are talking about drugs... its funny i dont know im bored bored bored... as you can tell i guess i dont know i think i am going to go read journal i have nothing else to do! peace
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~me
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Miguels horoscope because im bored :\
daily extended:
Sweet details are what keeps people in love with their partners, but take a moment to look at the big picture of your future together.If you had planned on being able to work on personal projects for most of the day, you had better think again. As the situation rapidly evolves, you are given multiple tasks from someone in a position higher than you. You're the designated scribe, the impartial observer and the storehouse of all relevant data. All this information has powerful uses if you can manage to stay above the fray. Beware of those who have negative opinions about what you're doing.
weekly extended:
Nothing's black and white in the realm of romance, but at the beginning of the week you're tempted to put things into convenient categories. While it may offer some clarity at first, those sticky ol' feelings will quickly make your new scheme useless. But you'll recover your perspective quick-like (especially if you offer help to another on Wednesday or Thursday). By Friday and Saturday, you're seeing the big picture (and liking what you see!) -- these are superlative date nights, so take your sweetie or a potential one out on the town.
My horoscope because im bored :|
daily extended:
Don't shy away from bringing up a new issue, whether it's about money, sex or family. Tempers may flare, but it's just a momentary spark.The big picture could use some extra attention from you. Do whatever you can to reduce the frivolous details so that they don't keep confusing you. Look at it from every angle to make sure things are even. Even at the outer edge of your limits, you still want to perform effectively. In the event of failure, however, remember that this isn't intended as a personal insult. When the situation stands in this manner, business is strictly business
weekly extended:
Cut the chatter on Monday; if you listen now, you'll learn way more about some aspect of your love life than you would by talking yourself blue in the face. By Tuesday and through the middle of the week, body language may be speaking louder than words. Make sure yours is saying what you want it to (whether that's 'back off, buddy,' or 'come closer, baby'!). Friday or Saturday could present a romantic stumbling block; again, your powers of observation are extremely valuable. Keep your eyes open (rather than your mouth) and you'll soon see a way to sweeten the situation right up.
extras:
Quickie: Even if you have a photographic memory, you should still double-check the facts.
Overview: Intimacy is first and foremost on your mind, and you can't deny it. What you can deny is someone's request, especially if it's unreasonable and it involves money. Be smart with your checkbook. And your heart.
haha i dont know im bored... ok bye love~me
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i cut my hair yesterday and yea the lady messed it up and i was so mad because she had never ever messed up my hair and i was soo mad and then me and miguel got into a fight and it was stupid because it was over the fact that i was mad and i wouldnt calm down... so yea that was gay but i kinda fixed it i think illg et online tonight and show miguel what it looks like... i still miss him haha not that anyone didnt know but still... hehe ok yea i dont know what else to talk about everyone says they like my hair so i guess its ok but i dont know i still dont like it but oh well i dont really have a choice you know i just have to let it grow out but yea... i dont know i think i had better go because i cant even type right im making like a bajillion times like 5 million mistakes and its taking for ever to type so yea imma go bye!
to miguel: i love you times 500 million 7 trillion 3 jillion 576843456463 bajillion so i win i love you more (hehe lol muah i miss you!)
ok time to go laterdays
~amor-me
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[03 Nov 2004|11:07am] |
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ok well yea let me update really quick so that i can call miguel ok well my mom talked to the guy about my jacket and yea imma get it priority over night asap when it is dont then yea it will be great i should have it way before thanks giving the guy called me veronica guerrero.... :D it was crazy it was a total accident haha when my mom told me i was laughing i need to tell miguel the story so he can laugh too me and my mom are getting along ok i guess but we will see how long that lasts i guess you know what i mean.
migE03: U know I do
migE03: Saying I don't love u
migE03: I love u and miss u everyday, hour, minute even second
migE03: Its been too long
awww... i love him alot.. im happy i know him... that made me smile
ok well i think i have to go because i need to call miguel before i have to leave class so ill update more later maybe during lunch if i dont go to the bandhall ok bye later
con amor~
~me
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yea my mom and i were talking this morning and yea i dont know ... lot of shits going on right now and she and i were just there talking about everything and it was kinda weird we were talking and getting along and yea i dont know... she wants to move though like i dont know if it will actually happen but i know she wants to shes just tired of everything... and i kinda am too... she told me that the only reason we havent moved is because she said she didnt think that i could deal with not having my dad around but i think maybe like 3 years ago i might not have been able too, but now i think i could... i mean its not like he gives me things anyways you know?... every time that i need something its like well WHY? and im like well you know you dont give me anything so why is this a big deal... and im just sick of it all you know? i know that shes more sick of it than anything and i dont know... i dont know i think i could movei wouldnt be a big deal but i dont know... stuff is hard right now though and i dont want it to be... i just wish my parents could get along better but i know that they wont because my dads kids will never let go of the fact that my dad isnt married to thier mom anymore... but i dont know and its likei m not even my dads daughter ... he treats me so different from them its like what ever i need i cant get from him i can only get from my mom and it sucks... because i know that its hard for her... and now with my brother there at the house too its hard... that more money that my mom has to spend... like she doesnt even have any mome to do things anymore.. she never has money for her self... and i hate seeing her like that you know whati mean she and my dad were so like self involved i guess you could say but they always had enough money and stuff to be self involved and still support me but now since my dad wont help me and my mom out at all its hard for my mom and i know that she resents my dad for not helping which is why i dont see why they are still together... i mean she wastes money on him but he doesnt help her with anything at all and i dont know... i mean i wanna move and get away from everything but i dont know you know... its just hard...
oh yea my dad said i couldnt go to miguels for thanksgiving and that sucked really bad i started to cry but i dont think i nessecarily cried because he said no it was because you know i knew he was gonna say no but i just wanted to go sooooo bad that it just felt so horrible when he said no... and its because he doesnt trust me i know thats why he thinks im gonna get knocked up even though im not taht stupid but oh well thats his problem... you see stuff would be easier for me and miguel if we got away from my dad too, but thats not a reason that i want to move thats just a perk if we do, but i doubt we will i think if things keep up the way they are then we will move but i dont know... im just worried i guess about how things are going to end up you know when i was little it was great you know it was like just work hard and you can go to college which ever one you want we have everything taken care of but its just not like that anymore i dont even know if i am going to get to go to college right after high school i might have to work for a year untill i get some money and stuff i dont know im thinking too much but how can i not? there is just so much bad shit going on you know? well i dont know if you know but that makes me feel better i dont know... i do know that i miss miguel like a whole lot... i dont know.... i really do im like overly sad sometimes...just because i miss him... i dont know i dont think anyone understands my feelings for him its weird... i dont know... i just know i miss him a lot i hope i can see him soon. i just want to be around him just see him smile that will make me happy.
well i have to go this is really long ok bye!
amor~vero
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ok yea ive been thinking about how i didnt get to see fed before he left and yea i get kinda sad sometimes i feel bad you know what i mean... i feel bad because i promised that i would see him before he left and i didnt even get to talk to him because i didnt call him so i feel like shit, he had called but miguel was there and i didnt wanna talk to long so i said id call back and i didnt so i dont know. oh well... i guess thats what i get for not calling back i dont know... hes gonna be gone for like 8 months and i dont even have a way to talk to him or anything because he doesnt have a cell or anything... i know he has my number memorized so i guess he'll call if he wants too... i guess i just had to write that down because i was feeling all bad about it and i still do...
ok anyways.. yea i need to talk to my dad about going to see miguel for thanksgiving yea it would be fun if i did id be so happy but i want my dad to know that even if i dont get to see miguel im still not going with them to dallas so i want himt o knwo and i want to make sure he knows that going to see miguel will not infulence my choice not to go to dallas with them... i hope i get to go i really want to go like so bad.. i wanna see him i miss him alot and my mom knows it too and she really wants me to go see him and spend time with him so i hope i get to go.. i would be ecstatic if i could go like for real i would be so happy like you wouldnt even know i just know whtat if i got to go that would be the greatest....
yea i want a digital camera but miguel told me to look up my stuff like info and reviews for it to make sure i didnt get a crappy one. (you know what thats one of the reasons i love him soo much he always trys to make sure that nothign bad happens, i guess you could say, well not really bad, but you know hes always like looking out for me and i love him for that...)so i gotta go see which one i like and look at the stuff for it and see whats up with getting one... ill just tell my daddy thats what i want for christmas and my birthday so that way i can get a really good one.
but yea i think i had better go this entry is longer than i thought it was going to be so yea i might update later during lunch or somethign if i have nothign else to do... but i think i might go talk to reptar and chris and see how the hell they won the battle of the bands... so yea we'll see whats up laterdays~
amor~
vero
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i wanna talk to miguel later today about something i guess its kinda dumb but i guess i am a little jealous of Diana they are like always together and shes like really pretty so i dont know i guess its stupid because he says that he tells me everything but i cant help it im human... ha... i dont know i hate this i dont wanna be jealous its not my nature... i guess i just wanna i dont know what i want.. but yea ill figure it out writing it down helped alot... i mean i dont want him to not be her friend im just stupid nevermind .... whatever ... just forget it all
this might be a private entry so consider your self lucky if you get to read it...
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you know what was kinda cool eric invited me to go to the lil flip and ts and ap concert at CS in CC on nov the 13th for his birthday that was kinda cool i had wanted to go but i dont know i think my mom will let me since im not paying for the ticket so that would be cool but i dont know if i wanna go with him to the concert because he might try something and he said he wouldnt and he was like yea we can go as friends and just chill but i dont know. i want to go though just i dont knwo if i want to go with him... hmm that is weird... anyways miguel is suppose to go to the doctor today for his neck.. he better too so that way he wont hurt no more.. and yea i dont know what to talk about there really isnt anything to talk about you know what i mean yea... so i guess ill go now! *2*
oh yea!!!!!!!!!! miguel was telling me yesterday that one of his friends was talking about the senior shirts buti was like WWWWWWOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAHHHHHHH i didnt say nothing!lol and i didnt but thats another story for another time ok maybe later when im bore bore bored yup yup im so tired and i dont know why... oh well im out
bye bye
with love
veronica
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LAst night when me and miguel (mig and i) were talking he was saying " it bothers me that if i find someone here in san marcos that you wouldnt talk to me anymore." I didnt know what to think or say to that. it kinda made me feel likke i was holding him back (assuming thati am that much of an influence i guess nad that important, but i dont know)All i want is forhim to be happy which ever way it is with or without me. i think what he doesnt see about me not wanting to talk to him anymorei s that you know i love him so much that how am i suppose to talk to him if he has another girlfriend? i cant talk to him knowing that he is with someone else, knowing that heis notmine anymor. its not as east as he thinks it is. hes like it wont change everythin will be the same it will stay the same. but it wont. i know it wont it will be the same only ocmpletely diferent i dont know i guess the real reason well not the real reasonbut kinda like an explination is a quote that fed told me once when we were tlakingabout his ex financee he was saying "you never fall out of love with someone you just learn to live without them." if i cant be with him and hes with someone else how can i learn to live without him if hes there, how can i?as long as i talk to him i willwant him and i cant have him you know its allof you or none of you in thins relationship i guess kinda not that strong yet but somethinglike that. i can eventually talk to him again but it will take timebut like i said it wontbe the same it willbe so hard. i just dont think that for a while i could tlak to him becuase i couldnt handle seeing and knowing that he is with someone else and still talking to him the same way is impossible... i cant be the same. i dont really know why i am talking about this its just something that was in my head from last night because i couldnt really get it out last night. but yea... anyways. last night was crazy...i missed miguel so much i cried like not a flood of tears or anything but you know the tears were there. it was weird i dont know like ive said before ive never felt this way about anyone before im so scared to get hurt that ive never gotten like i guess attached you can say to anyone ive never let myself feel like this about anyone ever, buti cant help it there is just something abouthim i trust him and love him so much... i hope im not makeing a wrong choice in doing this. fed told me once that with in like the first couple of months of a relationship you can tell where you want it to go. all i know is that i want to be with miguel for a long time he means everything to me i just dont think he realizes. i would hope he feels the same and if he doesnt i hope he tells me before i get caught up even more than i am. i dont know i just miss him alot. i want to see him just be near him. he makes me so happy i just hope he knows and understands.
"hope is a risk that must be run"-GEORGES BERNANOS
(i hope it works out)
with love,
roni
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